Why me?

If you've ever had a significant occurrence in your life perhaps you've pondered that same question: Why me?

I certainly have asked that question once or twice in my life. After spending the last 3 months without a car I've been pondering that same thought. Why me? Why now?

But instead of asking those words, I've found it easier to ask: What can I learn? How does this serve me?

Those questions are a bit easier and a whole lot less self-pitying which is a waste of energy.

For some of you not having a car may not seem like much of an obstacle; it may seem like a luxury. And yes it is a luxury but it was one I was accustomed to.

I've been pondering what I can learn from all of this and I've found many, many things. All of which are positive (of course because I've chosen to see the positive in them but that's beside the point or maybe it's in addition to the point....I digress).

Being without a car has made me depend on others and I've now seen how incredibly independent I am.

And I've unearthed what independence means to me: I like to be in control. Without a car, I don't control all of the variables. I have to go when someone else wants to go; I have to leave when they want to leave.

Or I can only get around via the bus and Denver's bus service runs when it feels like it some days.

So how does all of that serve me? I've learned more patience (I swear I could out-Job Job right now) and I've also learned to speak up for myself and to ask for help. Ask my family and they will tell you how often I ask for help: rarely.

Where all of that lack of asking comes from, I'm not entirely certain but it's definitely rooted in childhood experiences.

Regardless, this experience is definitely serving me. I am much more sympathetic, patient and open to asking for help. And if I wasn't asking other people for help you can bet your Etnies (or Nikes or whatever you're wearing) that I wasn't asking the Universe for help either!!!

Or at least not consistently. So yes I am learning to vocalize my desires more and more. And I think it's working for my benefit. :)

That being said I'm buying a new car pretty darn quick. ;) I become a full-time copywriter at The Sports Authority next week and then I'll be shopping for my Jeep Liberty. Wish me luck! Car shopping can be fun...I just have to step into the right attitude and it will be.

After all of the searching, research and energy I have put into buying a car (both now and in the past), I'm wondering if there's a suitable market for helping female car buyers. Perhaps there's a new info-product in all of this????!!!!!!!!! Maybe! More research will help me see what's out there. I'll keep you posted!

All my best,


Lara

Why not you?

Today was a day of ups and downs.

Although the insurance company hasn't officially announced it, my car appears to be totaled. My baby Kala has died and is going to RAV4 heaven. I will miss her. She was the first car I ever bought and completely paid for all by myself.

In fact, she's the only "big ticket" item I've ever bought and paid off myself. My parents helped me with my education and I have no real estate or other significantly large material holding.

*sigh* But the plus side to losing Kala (sounds like Koohla, it's Hawaiian for "princess"), is that my insurance company is going to pay me for her. I don't know exactly how much but it will be a few thousand dollars. Those few thousands will be my ticket straight to Chicago.

And continuing on the positive side, I have a 30 day contract to work for The Sports Authority starting on Wednesday.

It's as a special projects copywriter! Cool right?! I'm excited for that, it should be a lot of fun. The pay is better than my other temp jobs and the company seems to be growing and thriving. It is good for now I think!

That's about all I've got for news. I can't sit in this chair for too much longer, it hurts my back. My acupuncture and massages are helping my injuries (from the car accident) but I am not 100% yet. That is to be expected I think although I will always hope for overnight miracles! :)
Tomorrow I have another acupuncture treatment and I'll be visiting my massage therapist on Saturday again. It's so nice to have people take care of me!!! I love it.

Next time, I'm going to make it a priority to let others help me when I'm healthy...I'd rather visit the massage therapist when I'm in my usual mint condition and not when I'm feeling like a debiliated 90 year old woman with a crooked back!!!

That's it for me. I hope this finds you well.

Create a nice day,


Lara

T-Bone

Sadly I don't mean the steak. T-bone is when someone smacks into the middle of your car and the accident forms a T-shape.

It's what happened to me today.

I'm ok but am shaken up and very sore. Fortunately the other driver hit my passenger side and not the driver side. I would have been seriously injured or worse if he had hit me instead. Thank heavens for that.

However my car (Kala as I call her) is not in good shape. She is in the body shop as we speak. It is one of the only nights she has not been with me.

I am sad and miss her.

She is my baby and has been with me through many big life events like moving here to Colorado! We have conquered fears, mountains and mangy men together!! I have named her Kala which is Hawaiian for princess. She's the princess and I'm the queen (queen b**ch to some!).

There's a possibility she is totaled because of her age (10 years, 152,000 miles). I hope not but if that's the case, I will simply take the insurance money and move to Chicago with it. I think Kala is only worth about 2 grand at this point.

That's enough to get me started there but isn't much of a down payment for a new car.

Besides, my income isn't very steady right now and I'd hate to add a car payment to my monthly bills. Chicago transit is excellent and I can live without a car there...at least for awhile.

We shall see.

So I'm going to keep this short, I apologize because I am simply not up to a lengthy post. You dear readers have been neglected of late! I hope my article recommendations have made up for it. But I do owe you better posts soon.

Hopefully after I get a wireless router here at my new home I will be able to write more thoughtful posts for you. That was part of my trip today before the accident - a router.

Tomorrow I am off to the mountains for a wedding and for the 4th of July so you will not hear from me until late Wednesday night or (more likely) Thursday. I do hope this finds you well and enjoying a lovely summer evening!

Create a nice day,



Lara